So, this holiday season is pretty bittersweet at this point.
My father's sister just passed away a week and a half ago. She had cancer for the past 3(?) years and it finally took her life on Thursday, the 12th. So, my dad went down to Florida to be with his family and he just got back yesterday.
On the brighter side, though, my cousin (this aunt's daughter) had a baby boy the day before his grandmother passed away.
We're all thinking she held on just one more day for him, but for the last two weeks of her life, she went in and out of coherency, so it's hard to tell.
My grandmother took it really hard, but she's being strong for everyone, and the rest of the family is a complete wreck.
Not to speak ill of the dead, but my aunt didn't seem to like our family (unresolved issues I still don't know 100% about), and we weren't that close with her or her family.
So I have mixed emotions.
On the one hand, I'm sad that we lost her, but on the other hand, I'm thinking that with her gone, we may actually be able to become closer with our cousins.
The whole situation just hasn't been dealt with well. It's really awkward.
But, we're supposed to be going to my other grandparents for Thanksgiving, and if my cousins from my mom's side are gonna' be there, it'll be a ton of fun. =D
And we have a new "aunt" who wants to buy us all gifts, even though we told her she really doesn't have to. So that's fun. =)
And I want to make a holiday party. So now I have to plan all that out. But some of my out of town friends said they might come in for it, so I should really get started on that.
Oh! And I have to set up an interview the first week of Dec!!!!
That's so close!
I'm SOOOOOO excited!!!!!
I really need a job!
Wish me luck!
Oooh, I don't know if I have an interview outfit..... I should really look for one now....
Happy Holidays, everyone!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Am I A Horrible Person?
I am.
I must be.
There's no way someone can go through life like me and NOT be a horrible person.
It's just that I'm so detached from it all that I CAN'T care about it.
And that makes me horrible.
It must.
Please tell me I'm not.
Please?
I must be.
There's no way someone can go through life like me and NOT be a horrible person.
It's just that I'm so detached from it all that I CAN'T care about it.
And that makes me horrible.
It must.
Please tell me I'm not.
Please?
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I Lied
Ok, it's true. I haven't had any time to do my new blog for reviews. Yeah, I stink.
Anywho, life's been kinda' crazy lately, which is why I haven't had time for blogging.
Since I've been job hunting, I've had to polish up my resume and put a portfolio together (both of which I happen to be very proud!) and both of those take a long time.
Plus all the holidays and stuff to prepare for.
And still doing the basic things like making sure dinner's on the table every night by the time my mom walks in the house, and cleaning up peoples' junk, and washing clothes, and cleaning my room.
Oh, and not managing to go to bed until 2am every night. (That HAS to stop. And yet, I say that at 2:30am. Yikes.)
So, tonight we had a small Girls Get Together with friends and it was really nice. We ate, listened to music, told stories, played games, ate some more, laughed, told jokes, ate some more... (notice a recurring theme here?) =D
After that, I got online to check a few things and order a couple of things from Kodak, and when I logged into my email, I saw a message awaiting me that had bad news written all over it.
My friend's father passed away.
He hadn't been well for a while, but it's such a heart breaking thing. Especially because she's only 21 and just got engaged last week. They moved the wedding up to Nov 10th so that he would be able to attend, but I guess that won't be happening. And of course, she lives in NY, so I can't even go over and give her a hug right now.
Gosh it sucks to be poor.
If I had the money to hop on a flight right this second, I would be there giving her a hug and not writing this blog that nobody even reads.
*sigh*
Oh, and I keep having dreams that I'm going to marry a certain celebrity whose name I will not divulge here. ;)
It's weird. The dreams seem to go that I meet him at a meet and greet at one of his concerts and invite him on an adventure to Shenandoah National Park with 5 rules, and he becomes intrigued and accepts:
1. He has to keep his hands to himself at all times, unless I fall and start tumbling off the side of a mountain, in which case, he may grab my hand to pull me back up. Otherwise, no physical contact.
2. He must bring a list of at least 10 of the funniest jokes/stories he's ever heard.
3. He must bring music. Lots of new music that I've never heard before.
4. I'm in charge of the food and accommodations, but he has to pitch in for the gas money.
5. He can't fall in love with me.
But of course, in these dreams, he does. Which becomes really awkward because he then tells me he would like to date me and be my boyfriend, but I tell him that we can't. And I actually use the words, "it just wouldn't work out between us." To which he asks, "why not?" To which I respond, "let me put it in the easiest words I can: you want a girlfriend; I want a husband."
And of course, there are other reasons it wouldn't work out, but since these situations are always happening in my subconscious, I'm totally not in control and the dreams shift a little and tons of weird stuff happens that has nothing to do with anything. Which is totally the story of my life.
So yeah, that's a little bit about what's been going on in my life.
So, how are you?
:o)
Anywho, life's been kinda' crazy lately, which is why I haven't had time for blogging.
Since I've been job hunting, I've had to polish up my resume and put a portfolio together (both of which I happen to be very proud!) and both of those take a long time.
Plus all the holidays and stuff to prepare for.
And still doing the basic things like making sure dinner's on the table every night by the time my mom walks in the house, and cleaning up peoples' junk, and washing clothes, and cleaning my room.
Oh, and not managing to go to bed until 2am every night. (That HAS to stop. And yet, I say that at 2:30am. Yikes.)
So, tonight we had a small Girls Get Together with friends and it was really nice. We ate, listened to music, told stories, played games, ate some more, laughed, told jokes, ate some more... (notice a recurring theme here?) =D
After that, I got online to check a few things and order a couple of things from Kodak, and when I logged into my email, I saw a message awaiting me that had bad news written all over it.
My friend's father passed away.
He hadn't been well for a while, but it's such a heart breaking thing. Especially because she's only 21 and just got engaged last week. They moved the wedding up to Nov 10th so that he would be able to attend, but I guess that won't be happening. And of course, she lives in NY, so I can't even go over and give her a hug right now.
Gosh it sucks to be poor.
If I had the money to hop on a flight right this second, I would be there giving her a hug and not writing this blog that nobody even reads.
*sigh*
Oh, and I keep having dreams that I'm going to marry a certain celebrity whose name I will not divulge here. ;)
It's weird. The dreams seem to go that I meet him at a meet and greet at one of his concerts and invite him on an adventure to Shenandoah National Park with 5 rules, and he becomes intrigued and accepts:
1. He has to keep his hands to himself at all times, unless I fall and start tumbling off the side of a mountain, in which case, he may grab my hand to pull me back up. Otherwise, no physical contact.
2. He must bring a list of at least 10 of the funniest jokes/stories he's ever heard.
3. He must bring music. Lots of new music that I've never heard before.
4. I'm in charge of the food and accommodations, but he has to pitch in for the gas money.
5. He can't fall in love with me.
But of course, in these dreams, he does. Which becomes really awkward because he then tells me he would like to date me and be my boyfriend, but I tell him that we can't. And I actually use the words, "it just wouldn't work out between us." To which he asks, "why not?" To which I respond, "let me put it in the easiest words I can: you want a girlfriend; I want a husband."
And of course, there are other reasons it wouldn't work out, but since these situations are always happening in my subconscious, I'm totally not in control and the dreams shift a little and tons of weird stuff happens that has nothing to do with anything. Which is totally the story of my life.
So yeah, that's a little bit about what's been going on in my life.
So, how are you?
:o)
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
An Update...
Yeah, so I decided to start a new blog called "In A Nutshell Reviews" under the username BroccoliTofuReviews. I know that pretty much nobody reads this, however, if anyone randomly comes across this, they might be interested.
In case you couldn't tell by the title, each blog will be a review of a CD or book that I like. Mostly newer stuff, but not completely. I mean, a lot of books go unnoticed, so I figure a little review might boost it if someone reads it. =)
My taste in music is incredibly eclectic and I like to read a lot, so my reviews will be sporadic and kinda' random, but fun.
So check it out!
http://broccolitofureviews.blogspot.com/
In case you couldn't tell by the title, each blog will be a review of a CD or book that I like. Mostly newer stuff, but not completely. I mean, a lot of books go unnoticed, so I figure a little review might boost it if someone reads it. =)
My taste in music is incredibly eclectic and I like to read a lot, so my reviews will be sporadic and kinda' random, but fun.
So check it out!
http://broccolitofureviews.blogspot.com/
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
La La La La LIFE! =)
Yep! I'm blogging on my blogger! I was on my gmail and just clicked over for a sec and got the idea to blog, so here I am! =D
**I apologize in advance to anyone who takes the time to read this - I might ramble a little. Ok, a lot. XD
Life seems to keep getting the best of me and those I know. Sometimes good, sometimes not so good.
I have a few other blogs online that nobody really knows about, but I haven't written to any of them in months. I was busy with school for a while, which is why I didn't have a chance, but now I do nothing all day except job hunt and totally bum around. NOT good.
I've officially decided that I'm jealous of all those little high school/middle schoolers! They complain about school work and homework, but they really have no idea how lucky they are to have structure and socializing opportunities in their lives! All of my friends are at colleges across the world or working or married with kids already! I hardly see most of them except for weddings and stuff.
I'm turning 21 on Friday and I still feel like I belong in 11th grade. It's ridiculous! lol
So yeah, I really want to get into a graphics design school, but it costs more than I have and they don't take financial aid/pell grants. NOT good.
So, that leaves me to either make the $22,000 myself, find another career, or take out a loan. Taking out a loan for that much is really not as easy as it sounds. I don't exactly have credit, and the people I know who do have credit are afraid to be a co-signer because of the way the economy is going. NOT good.
But I really don't think I have the head or skills for any other career! Unless I go into teaching, but with the way the youth of today acts, I don't think I want to be stuck in a classroom with any of them for hours every day. =(
So what do I do?
Well, I've decided to try and design a few things and stick them on t-shirts, hats, bags, whatever, and see if I can find people to buy them. Yeah, I don't know how well that's going to go either, but it's worth a shot, right? =) GOOD.
I'm also still working on a few drawings that people said they'd pay good money for, which might help me if they decide to spend the money on them! GOOD.
Also, I've been looking into maybe doing freelance photography, submitting some pictures to a few magazines/newspapers and seeing what comes of that. GOOD.
And then there's the whole job hunting thing that I've been working on. There have been a few opportunities that have popped up, but at the last minute, each one's been taken down. =( But there are still a few out there, I just need to put in the time to go through with it all.
There's other "fun" stuff going on in my life, but that's all about my family members. Not so good there. But I don't really have the time to get into all that right now. Maybe if I decide to blog here again, sometime. =)
Love, care, and appreciate.
:o)
**I apologize in advance to anyone who takes the time to read this - I might ramble a little. Ok, a lot. XD
Life seems to keep getting the best of me and those I know. Sometimes good, sometimes not so good.
I have a few other blogs online that nobody really knows about, but I haven't written to any of them in months. I was busy with school for a while, which is why I didn't have a chance, but now I do nothing all day except job hunt and totally bum around. NOT good.
I've officially decided that I'm jealous of all those little high school/middle schoolers! They complain about school work and homework, but they really have no idea how lucky they are to have structure and socializing opportunities in their lives! All of my friends are at colleges across the world or working or married with kids already! I hardly see most of them except for weddings and stuff.
I'm turning 21 on Friday and I still feel like I belong in 11th grade. It's ridiculous! lol
So yeah, I really want to get into a graphics design school, but it costs more than I have and they don't take financial aid/pell grants. NOT good.
So, that leaves me to either make the $22,000 myself, find another career, or take out a loan. Taking out a loan for that much is really not as easy as it sounds. I don't exactly have credit, and the people I know who do have credit are afraid to be a co-signer because of the way the economy is going. NOT good.
But I really don't think I have the head or skills for any other career! Unless I go into teaching, but with the way the youth of today acts, I don't think I want to be stuck in a classroom with any of them for hours every day. =(
So what do I do?
Well, I've decided to try and design a few things and stick them on t-shirts, hats, bags, whatever, and see if I can find people to buy them. Yeah, I don't know how well that's going to go either, but it's worth a shot, right? =) GOOD.
I'm also still working on a few drawings that people said they'd pay good money for, which might help me if they decide to spend the money on them! GOOD.
Also, I've been looking into maybe doing freelance photography, submitting some pictures to a few magazines/newspapers and seeing what comes of that. GOOD.
And then there's the whole job hunting thing that I've been working on. There have been a few opportunities that have popped up, but at the last minute, each one's been taken down. =( But there are still a few out there, I just need to put in the time to go through with it all.
There's other "fun" stuff going on in my life, but that's all about my family members. Not so good there. But I don't really have the time to get into all that right now. Maybe if I decide to blog here again, sometime. =)
Love, care, and appreciate.
:o)
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Am I Obnoxious?
I left a comment on Christa Black's most recent blog post that was HUGE.
If you're on my blog because of that response, please comment on this so I know how you feel about my comment.
I'm a very thoughtful person - that is to say, full of thought.
I'm also a writer, and sometimes I tend to write the way I think, so things come out really long. XD
I hope I didn't bother or offend you. =)
Was it too long?
Did you actually read it?
Did what I wrote actually make a difference?
Do you not care?
Thanks!
~BT
:o)
If you're on my blog because of that response, please comment on this so I know how you feel about my comment.
I'm a very thoughtful person - that is to say, full of thought.
I'm also a writer, and sometimes I tend to write the way I think, so things come out really long. XD
I hope I didn't bother or offend you. =)
Was it too long?
Did you actually read it?
Did what I wrote actually make a difference?
Do you not care?
Thanks!
~BT
:o)
I Caved...
Yeah, I said I probably wouldn't post anything here, but I am.
I came to the realization that Blogger.com has no way for members to interact. [I may be incorrect in that finding, but until I hear otherwise, that's what I know...]
So for anyone who wishes to know more about me or reach me in any manner, I'd like to provide several options:
Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/broccolitofu
Glogster: http://brooque613.glogster.com/profile
DeviantArt: http://brooque613.deviantart.com/profile
Tumblr: http://lovingcaringandappreciating.tumblr.com/
I have a few other sites that I've chosen not to list here for personal reasons. However, if I get to know you well enough, I might mention them to you.
Tootles!
~BT
I came to the realization that Blogger.com has no way for members to interact. [I may be incorrect in that finding, but until I hear otherwise, that's what I know...]
So for anyone who wishes to know more about me or reach me in any manner, I'd like to provide several options:
Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/broccolitofu
Glogster: http://brooque613.glogster.com/profile
DeviantArt: http://brooque613.deviantart.com/profile
Tumblr: http://lovingcaringandappreciating.tumblr.com/
I have a few other sites that I've chosen not to list here for personal reasons. However, if I get to know you well enough, I might mention them to you.
Tootles!
~BT
Friday, June 26, 2009
You Know, It's Funny
I have several blogs throughout the internet and I don't think anyone ever sees them. XD
I find it interesting.
I also find it interesting that I probably have about 4 accounts here on blogger.com and yet I can never remember what they are!
So I guess I'll just keep up with this one. I might post stuff here sometimes, but I think I want to mostly use this account to subscribe to other blogs that I find incredibly fascinating.
If you want to subscribe to mine, that would be really cool. And if I get enough subscribers, I might just start posting things here to entertain you all. =)
A little about me: I have a crazy life, and I love to have fun.
That's a little, right?
Well, thanks for stopping by, and maybe I'll catch ya' later. =)
~BT
I find it interesting.
I also find it interesting that I probably have about 4 accounts here on blogger.com and yet I can never remember what they are!
So I guess I'll just keep up with this one. I might post stuff here sometimes, but I think I want to mostly use this account to subscribe to other blogs that I find incredibly fascinating.
If you want to subscribe to mine, that would be really cool. And if I get enough subscribers, I might just start posting things here to entertain you all. =)
A little about me: I have a crazy life, and I love to have fun.
That's a little, right?
Well, thanks for stopping by, and maybe I'll catch ya' later. =)
~BT
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